Getting back in the swing of things

I've let this blog sit and wither away for a long while now. I've decided it's time to get back into writing again. Maybe relieve some stress. :) We just got home on Thursday from 4 days in the pediatric intermediate care unit at the Children's Hospital in Macon. My youngest was sick with RSV. I've never seen a child struggle for breath like she was. We went to the pedi on Monday morning and he sent us directly to the hospital. The hospital did what they could, including breathing treatments every hour, and she still showed no improvement. It was so scary. Nick took Zoe and went home and Abbie and I settled for a long night at the hospital. Around 6pm that night, the pedi came and looked her over and said he was sending her to the icu in Macon because her body was working so hard for breath that he was afraid she would get too tired and quit breathing.

That took my breath away. I think I went into shock, sitting there, holding my baby girl. I immediately called Nick and when I heard his voice on the other end of the line, I couldn't even speak. I burst into tears and he of course started freaking out. He called my mom and they came rushing back to the hospital. My mom was crying, my brother was crying. He thought she was going to die. Abbie was so sick.

They took her by ambulance to the pediatric intermediate unit. She looked so little on that stretcher. It made my heart hurt to look at her. I couldn't ride with her in the back of the ambulance. It was the longest ride of my life.

When we got to the hospital, they immediately hooked up up to oxygen and chest leads. She hated all those wires but didn't really fight them. I held her nonstop for most of the time. No sleep for four days. On Wednesday we were looking at at least 3 more days at the hospital. She hadn't eaten since 2pm on Monday. They had ivs hooked up but she wanted food, dang it.

Thursday, the nurse let us unhook the chest leads, oxygen thing on her foot and the blood pressure cuff. They also took the iv out because it started leaking at the site. Abbie was one happy baby. She felt so much better and was actually playing with toys. She wanted to get down and take off. The doctor came in while I was at lunch. My mom came to relieve me so I could get food as we couldn't eat in her room. My mom called me and said that they were letting her go home. The doctor said she looked so much better. It was unbelievable. I was so excited to bring my baby home. Abbie is happy and healthy now. 4 breathing treatments a day and check in with the pedi on Monday. Life is good again.

New baby, new problems

So we have a new baby in the house now. I don't know about you but I value sleep. I need sleep. I like sleep. With a new baby, you get no sleep. My oldest is two now. She sleeps through the night, no problem. Yes, it took us about 1 1/2 to get to that point but I enjoyed it. Now we have a newborn who has no respect for mommy's need for at least a little sleep to be able to deal with her older sister. All I can say is she better be glad she's so freaking cute.

What's new with you?

I feel like I need to go to sleep for the rest of the year. Who knew that being pregnant and working full time and being a full time wife and mother would be so tiring? Zoe is getting bigger and more precocious as the days stretch on. I never know what will come out of her mouth. She was introduced to the joys of play-doh last night. That was a lot of fun. That's what peeing in the potty gets her. Maybe it's working??

Nick is well...Nick. We hit a bumpy patch of just cohabitating and not really being a family. I didn't push it. He finally noticed I wasn't pushing it. Last night we talked and things seem to be looking up. I think it really is the rubber band thing. If I try to pull him closer, I just end up pushing him away but if I leave him alone, he wants to know why. I just let him come back to me. It was actually peaceful to get a little alone time for a while. I think we are back to being husband and wife instead of just Zoe's mommy and daddy. That's what we have to work on. The balance between both of those.

I have to go back to the doctor on the 18th and everything seems to be going fine. We have 74 days to go. Less than 3 months. Is it just me or is this pregnancy flying by? With Zoe I felt like she couldn't get here fast enough. With this one, I really am not doing that. My due date is the end of working outside the house for at least 6 months. I don't know if I can go back to that. I love working. I love having responsibilities and things that depend on me to happen. I love being able to hold conversations with actual adults. I am excited to see what this baby looks like though. Nick wants to do a 3D sonogram but I don't know if we'll do that or not.

We'll see how everything goes.

Testing, testing, one two three...

I'm new to this. First post and all. Hopefully, I'll find something to talk about. I guess I should do this as an introduction, right? I am a mom to Zoe, wife to Nick and just me. We have another baby on the way-about to make our little family of three become a family of four. I don't know if I'm ready for that but I guess I don't really have a choice right now, right? Ready or not, here comes baby. :)